another update

so after i picked up ryan from football, we went to the house to feed the cat. then we went back to the school and picked up jenn. we played 4 games of clue, 2 games of life, a couple rounds of twister, and jenn and i played battleship while ryan played hockey on playstation 2. ricky came home during twister, and we went upstairs. he asked me if i got the laundry done. are you kidding me? does it sound like i had time to do laundry? hell no. so i got into a bad mood. ricky called kevin and asked him to come over. they went swimming while ryan and i got dinner. we were going to pick up clothes for ryan too, but the apartment was locked. after dinner, ricky, ryan, and i went to the driving range for golfing again. not bad. fortunately i'm not sore today! then we went to get ice cream at dairy mart. after that we went to james and tracy's to pick up ryan's stuff since he's staying here now. we came home and went to bed since by then it was about 10 or 10.30.

this morning i woke up with ricky again because i had to be at tracy's at 9.30 to take the baby to carpentersville and her to work at walmart in algonquin. i really like tracy. it's nice to talk to her so much. however, when i got home, my mom asked me to take her to my dad's work to pick up her car. i hate this. i am not a taxi. i'm spreading myself too thin by doing everything for everyone else that i don't have time to do anything for ME. sounds a little selfish, but when i'm spending all my time taking people to places and picking people up from everywhere.. then playing games all day because ricky's brother isn't occupying himself and i feel bad if i'm not entertaining him.. i just have no time to do anything that i want to do or need to do, like the laundry, packing, and maybe reading a book or two. whatever. anyways, in the car with tracy, ricky called me and told me that he talked to the apartment lady. saturday afternoon is the newest move-in date and time. if she moves it ONE more time, we're not moving into this apartment. i can't take being jerked around like this anymore. what if we didn't have anywhere to stay from the 1st to the 16th??? ricky told her we had people from out of town helping us move, and they can't just come in at the drop of a dime. wtf? i'm getting really mad now. that just put me over the top. then when i was driving my mom to my dad's work, she kept talking about all of it. i'm sick of hearing shit. it's my life, and i know what i'm doing. just SHUT UP. ugh. and now i have to go to work. and i hate my sister more and more every day. she makes me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mad. ugh. thank the lord we're moving out.. at least i think we are. we better! i have no idea what i will do if we don't. saturday is the day, and if it's not, i'm going to go off the wall.

in other news, i have to leave for work in a little bit. i don't particularly wanna go, but jim should be leaving when i get there. that's very good news. then i work saturday. if they scheduled me for more than thursday and sunday when jim's gone, i'll be pissed. i can't take this stuff. i'll work it, but then i'm done. ricky's parents will be home soon, so then ryan can go home and i can work days again. i really can, but i don't want to. and i don't want to work nights because then i'll never see ricky. no need to ruin a marriage already. i think i'm gonna go apply at ace, and then maybe walmart to work weekends while i'm in school since there is no point in getting a job in peoria. whatever. i'm gonna sit around for a while. i'm not in a wonderful mood right now. and i have to go to work. i don't know how much worse it can get.